I can’t handle it

I can’t handle it

Yesterday in the growth workshop I decided to look at my relationship to money. I have been trying to crack this tough nut for many years: in every business I have had everyone said I was sitting on a big mountain of money… but not actualizing much of it. ūüė¶

So I set out to work on money… Asking: how come I don’t make as much money as I could… with what I have…

Of course I am the course leader, so I don’t have time to deal with my own sh-it, but now it is on the sheet… documented, and the table.

After the webinar I did some busy work, watched some old private eye show… went to bed, and fell asleep. I didn’t even want to do the healing work I was supposed to do… it seemed every fiber of my being wanted to not be conscious… sleep, blessed sleep.

At 2 am I woke up to feverish activity in the mind… it was so feverish and so insistent, I couldn’t go back to sleep, so I got up, got dressed. I made a cup of tea, sat down, and pondered.

I could hear a faint voice in my head, no, in my body: I can’t handle it.
Anything you do, anything you feel, all behavior, all emotions come from some words. Hearing the words is the key to get the actions conscious, to get the behavior conscious.
The voice I heard, ‘I can’t handle it’ explains almost everything in my life.

When who you are ‘I can’t handle it’, the way you avoid having to handle it is to avoid doing it altogether. I have been avoiding writing ‘real’ sales letters,… the way you make real money. No sales letter = no real money, or just a little bit. Alms.

Why not just do it? It is hard, and it needs my weakest capacity… as a dyslexic person I have a wicked hard time to organize stuff, put them in order, have a sequence. And that, a sequence is the heart of a sales letter.

I have a hard time seeing what to say when… But hard time doesn’t mean I can’t…

I can, probably, although I haven’t even tried in years.
I have been avoiding the unpleasant feeling about myself, the feeling that I am somehow defective.
Here it is… the tears are starting.

Yeah… the unpleasantness from the world is much easier to handle than the unpleasantness of facing the inner tiger, the idea that somehow you are not perfect, that you are somehow defective.
This was an insight. Insights are a dime a dozen.
Now, having an insight is fine and dandy… but it will make no difference unless I create a breakthrough form it first, and a new habit next.

In the workshop everyone I said that embracing how you are is the key to being able to have the rest of life to be different. Whether it is in relationships or in results; it is immaterial: if you can embrace the imperfection then you can go beyond.
So embracing says that I should be the way I am… exactly the way I am…
…and start there… dyslexic, afraid of complexity, afraid of structuring pieces… Good. That is the way I am… and I should be that way, because that is how I am.
Now what

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The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth

I made an alarming observation yesterday at my monthly PlaygroundPlayground session. Every single person in the program has a version of ‘I only want to do what I want to do, and none of the things I am supposed to do’.

Of course there is a gradation… gradients… some are less unwilling than others.

Chances are I didn’t get all ‘special’ people into my programs, so it seems that this is part of the human condition now: people don’t want to do what they need to do, what they ought to do to be well, to be valuable, to be happy, fulfilled.

Some of the services I provide is muscle testing supplement list, food list, eating style, and health measurements.

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When something changes… what made it change?

What makes the difference? When something starts to work: what made it suddenly work? Do you know? Chances are: you don’t. And neither do so-called scientists. It is a guess… the guess that makes them seem right. We are wrong 99% of the time. Why?

We do the same thing when something doesn’t work. We guess why… and we are wrong 99% of the time. Why?

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040 – Coaching with Sophie

040- Coaching with Sophie. Listen to episode 039 first. Sophie is interested in you growing, giving you ALL the power. She figures out the disconnect that holds you back. In contrast, most coaches withhold power, so that you keep coming back.

Sophie is guided by the echo… if you have boring-not-boring, or fun-not-fun as an echo to everything, then you need to expand your accurate vocabulary. Not-fun is not real. (Explained in episode 039) If that is your pivot, then Sophie starts working on that, to expand your vocabulary, and her job is to make it a little bit flexible. Change comes from what you do.

There is a saying: You take yourself wherever you go. What are you bringing from the past into your present and future? The inner witness can see it and it is ruthless. Most people can’t see their own attitude, so need it pointed out to them¬† by a mentor, coach or in a workshop like the Playground.

Anything you see, comes with words already attached. They come together, like the front and back of your hand. There is an  emotional and maybe  intellectual content with the words.  Get curious Рwhat part is reality and what part is the speaking (the already-attached words).

Everything that happened to you, came with a meaning. If you want to change your future, apply for the Playground live workshops, Reclaim email based coaching or private coaching 1-2-1 sessions.

P.S: What Sophie does is unique in the world. Don’t wait around for ten years, because Sophie is old and you will regret missing out.

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040 – Coaching with Sophie

040- Coaching with Sophie. Listen to episode 039 first. Sophie is interested in you growing, giving you ALL the power. She figures out the disconnect that holds you back. In contrast, most coaches withhold power, so that you keep coming back.

Sophie is guided by the echo… if you have boring-not-boring, or fun-not-fun as an echo to everything, then you need to expand your accurate vocabulary. Not-fun is not real. (Explained in episode 039) If that is your pivot, then Sophie starts working on that, to expand your vocabulary, and her job is to make it a little bit flexible. Change comes from what you do.

There is a saying: You take yourself wherever you go. What are you bringing from the past into your present and future? The inner witness can see it and it is ruthless. Most people can’t see their own attitude, so need it pointed out to them¬† by a mentor, coach or in a workshop like the Playground.

Anything you see, comes with words already attached. They come together, like the front and back of your hand. There is an  emotional and maybe  intellectual content with the words.  Get curious Рwhat part is reality and what part is the speaking (the already-attached words).

Everything that happened to you, came with a meaning. If you want to change your future, apply for the Playground live workshops, Reclaim email based coaching or private coaching 1-2-1 sessions.

P.S: What Sophie does is unique in the world. Don’t wait around for ten years, because Sophie is old and you will regret missing out.

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Tree of Knowledge path to life… Tree of Life path to Life. What’s the difference?

As people round the steps in the 67 step coaching program, as they begin the second cycle, they start to see new things, or they keep on seeing the same things…

Some see the things from memory. Comparing. “Knowing”. And some from actually seeing.

Step two (in the 67 steps) introduces the idea of the Selfish Gene, evolutionary stable strategy.

This point is where people diverge: one in the direction of the Tree of Knowledge, the other in the direction of the Tree of Life.

It is really amazing to watch them go, unaware of the other path.

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What life did you choose in the first hour of your day? The Backdrop

Every day works best if and when you have a context set in the first hour of the day. ((If you prefer the imprecise New Agey language of Esther Hicks, the original quote is here
Take the time to line up the Energy first, and action becomes inconsequential. If you don’t take the time to line up the Energy, if you don’t find the feeling place of what you’re looking for, not enough action in the world will make any difference.
She is trying to say the same thing. Trying.))

For most of you this is the same old, same old, because you put your attention to everything the same old way. I am not saying you should DO something different every morning, that is not what I am saying.

Doing different will not set the context, doing different will not change your beingness, doing different will not change what is the backdrop that all of life, everything that happens during that day, will happen.
Context, backdrop are beingness phenomena… They are like hunger.

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