What do you carry that weighs you down so much that that you can never ascend?
Or what weight you carry so that you can’t climb the Tree of Life, until you put it down?
Have you noticed that making permanent changes, doing new things, doing things in a new way, going to places unfamiliar is difficult for you, near impossible?
Consider that you are dragging a persona with you. That persona is what makes the going so difficult, so encumbered…