Your elbow is close, yet you can’t bite it… another Russian proverb…
Your mind says: I am not enough… it has been saying it for a long time… but nothing has changed.
It is Monday Morning and I am already not enough.
I just read the Monday Morning Memo, and it answered my nagging question: why am I not more successful? And answered it in a way that turned me into a heap of meat: I can’t do what it tells people to do… put sentences the way he says…
I can’t. I’ll never amount to much… maybe it’s time to pack it in.
I am pondering what he teaches, I am pondering my inability, I am pondering how I can live, have the audacity to live, now that I know.
I am pondering, as always, while I play Freecell, a computer card game. A completely impossible setup solves itself… I win the game.