You/I spend most of our lives trying to fix something that never happened. That was never factually true. Even though you keep telling the story as if it were true.
Some people call these demons… even though there are no demons… but nevertheless, using the expression: fighting your demons is very accurate, if you don’t believe that demons are entities. There are no entities in the visible or invisible Universe.
And yet we are fighting… I call it an itch… a compulsion… something that makes you weird.