So I am sitting here… and this wave of hopelessness washes over me. I observe my mind that goes and tries on different memes to make sense of the feeling.
“No matter what I do….” the whining voice says.
“It’s hopeless… give it up!” says the authoritative voice.
“You are worthless… who do you think you are to thing that you are any better?”
None of these are mine. The feeling comes from my next door neighbor who became a “Christian” to feel better, but it’s not working for her.