I consider myself quite aware, quite present, and yet… I am still finding out stuff that I have had no idea about.
Your attitude, more often than not, comes as a mirror of your “opponent’s”… partner’s, “the other”.
One of the automatic behaviors happens without any thinking on our part: mirroring.
It is one of those phenomena when you act and then justify it later.
Example: I called on a participant yesterday, or was it on Monday?
I found myself tensing up, I found myself arguing.
The difference between you and me, is that I caught myself. What tipped me off is that I had no reason to be confronted, or confrontational. I was at peace about the topic, about the participant, about life. So suddenly hearing myself arguing was a dead giveaway.